Weekend

This coming weekend is going to a hard but exciting time for my family and I. sunday is the 2nd annual BAM. last year i was not able to go because i was in california and couldnt get away from classes.
though i think about Brian daily, i think this will be harder then that because this event is in memory of him, on one of his favorite days of the year, super bowl sunday.
Brian died over a year ago and it still shocks me that he is truly gone, visiting the grave is nothing like what i thought it would be. i havent cried while visiting him the last couple times, it hasnt scared me as much as it did before. leaving him on the other hand has been really hard, on his 16th birthday michelle and i left him cupcakes, i wish he could have tasted those that day.
another reason this weekend is going to be so exciting is that my parents are flying in from cali for the event, which in itself is going to be a blast, but they also get to meet el boyfriend for the first time, and that scares the crap out of me.
he is a good guy though so he should pass all of their questions.
overall i think this weekend will once again show how many people really care about Bri and the family, its a time for everyone to come together and just remember the beautiful person as a whole. i am sure it will be hard on Stan and Brenda, also brooke, but we are all going to be there and we have to stick together as a family during these things because some people just dont get that hearing the same statements gets old and even harder to hear "he was a great kid""perfect""loved his smile"
we all know he was perfect with a great smile and a caring heart.